Missions are extremely hard

Hey family!

So the plane ride was awesome and I loved being out and about instead of being in a classroom. I even got to teach a lesson on the plane from Atlanta to Columbus to this awesome lady named Sandra. I did not ask her if her last name started with a D. Sorry dad haha. 

Elder Homewood
We met President Nilsen and his wife around three minutes after we got off the plane. They are awesome!! The Assistants are way cool and the mission home is very nice. 19 of us came in this transfer with 4 of us speaking Spanish. The night at the mission home we got grilled hamburgers and homemade mac and cheese. I about died from pleasure, it was such a good change from all that cafeteria food. I met my trainer in the morning and he is way cool. His name is Elder Homewood from Gilbert AZ and he has 3 months left. He asked me how the newest Batman movie was haha. I actually have a second companion. His name is Elder Arveseth and he is from Brigham City. He says Brigham City is smaller than Tooele but I don't know about that... He has been here for 3 months and this is his first transfer after his trainer. They are both pretty cool guys but they are not near as silly as me. Sometimes that's pretty tough but we still have fun.
Elder Arveseth

 I don't actually really like the tripanionship but it definitely has it's pros to compensate for the cons. I don't have to talk much during the lessons which is nice for me because my Spanish got much worse after trying to learn subjunctive. I can't seem to conjugate quickly at all and it's hard. I don't like that my Spanish ability declined after learning so much but I should get the hang of it. It doesn't help that I really don't like even hearing the Spanish language spoken. I hear it all the time and I hope I get calloused because it's driving me a little crazy.

I saw the funniest sign here! It is one of those yellow diamond caution signs and instead of saying watch for children, it just says "Watch Children". I think that is so creepy and funny! I have seen two of them and I still crack up about it. My companions don't think it's funny like I do though... Something else hard is that they always seem to ignore me. They hardly ever answer my questions the first time I ask them and when they do it's after about 12 full seconds of me just looking at them waiting. 

So missions are extremely hard. The first night or two with my companions were just so overwhelming. My companions never slow down either so everything I have to do isn't really explained to me. They just take care of it while I try to copy what they write in their planners. In all honesty I hated my first couple days. I was very sad and frustrated. There were some fun parts but I was still not happy. I was bummed because I thought I was supposed to be happy doing the Lord's work. Most of it I think is because I am supposed to do all of these things and progress, but I am supposed to do it in a language I don't know very well.
Elder Fivas

There are three stages during my day. The first one being, this is fun and I'm happy sharing Christ's gospel with others. The second is that I would rather be pretty much anywhere else but here. The third is that this sucks and I really don't want to be here,  Why did I even come out? I guess I am still trying to find out the answer to that question. I thought I knew but I would say I am only content anywhere from 10% - 40% of the time, let alone joyful. That is a much lower percentage. Sunday was great though! I was content all day and had some good times and learned a lot. 

I know pretty much every reason why I should be out here in my head but I have yet to fully feel it in my heart. This is by far the hardest thing I have done and sometimes it's hard to have hope. You can tell yourself all that you know but it is still different than really feeling it. I plan on working hard on Spanish so I can learn quickly. I think that is one of the biggest roots of my problems.

So I am in the Miami River 2 area. I live in Forest Park Ohio down closer to Cincinnati. We cover mostly Fairfield Ohio. The weather here changes on a dime. It was beautiful for a couple days and we even rode bikes one of the days and that was a lot of fun! (We have a car because Spanish areas are pretty big) Now it's cold and snowy again but that's fine. The snow here is a lot more wet.

I have learned that Hispanics are very different from white people haha. They are much more tranquilo and willing to let you in their door. But they are flaky and have some seriously crazy lives haha. They are pretty poor for the most part in our area. In fact I have not stepped foot into a neighborhood because we are always in apartment complexes haha. I don't even know what I am smelling when I am tracting haha because those complexes and trailer parks are crazy. 

Anyways, my address is:

1440 West Kemper
Apt. 307
Forest Park, OH 45240

Remember that changes if I am transferred but I have a feeling I will be here for 3 months. The mission office can forward letters if you want to make sure they get to me but they can't forward FedEx and UPS and stuff so I don't have any bedding haha. But my blanket is sure cozy so I don't mind! Oh and the bike I got is super great! 

Well everyone, enjoy what you've got and eat out often! 

Elder Fivas